oh ye of little faith

so lately i have been worrying more than usual

i guess i've told myself it's ok because i'm a new mom, i've cut back on work substantially (which means cut back on pay), i have new responsibilities at work and home, etc

well, i have no excuses

i know i worry and it's not right

i need to trust God more

and He's been proving that to me over and over again lately

a few quick examples:

-our van

first off, God blessed us by practically giving us this van; see my grandpa taylor has alzheimer's and had been saying last Christmas 'sometimes i just want to take my keys and go driving'

not a good idea when he has forgotten most things already; so his sons (including my dad) decided the van should probably be taken away...so we bought it...huge blessing from God because it was in great shape and cheap

well, it started acting up recently...we took it in and what we thought was a few hundred dollars problem at the most turned out to be over a grand and it needed more fixes if we were going to drive it far...like driving it to South Carolina this Christmas

unfortunately my grandpa's alzheimer's has gotten worse and he's been very upset lately about whoever took his van from him...so we can't drive it and risk him seeing it...thank you God for this blessing in disguise

-our dishwasher

about two months ago our dishwasher took a poop

we have been fixing up our house and most of our appliances are black...except for the dishwasher and fridge, but both work fine so why replace them?

when the dishwasher broke, i told myself we didn't need one, and we didn't

but God knew i wanted one...and my parents went above and beyond and surprised me for Christmas and my birthday and bought me a black one...one john and i had looked at :)

thanks God!

-our stove

then about a week after the new dishwasher was installed, i tried to bake a pumpkin roll (for work) and banana bread (for fun)

after the oven had been at 375 degrees for an hour, i noticed it didn't seem very hot...in fact, i could touch the oven racks...not a good sign

we called a place that said if we brought it to them it would be, at the cheapest, $100...if they came here, well over that

well, i kind of need an oven...so we asked dad to take a peek at it...he didn't have any ideas either

except that idea that someone in their church fixes ovens for a living

he came over today, after being at his real job all day, looked at the oven, told us that what the store on the phone had thought it would be wasn't the actual problem...looks like instead of a few hundred dollars, it's about a $12 part! amazing!

God, You are awesome! thank You for providing every step of the way!

these are moments i need to see more often...because i know they happen more than i realize!